"It’s been quite so long since we’ve talked. I don’t even know what are you doing right now, i don’t even know who are you talking with right now. It’s been a long time since i updated your life. Yeah i admit, i miss you. But it does not mean that when i miss you, i still love you. Maybe i just plainly miss you and that’s all what i am feeling right now. Sometimes i can’t stop the habit of asking and checking about you. I miss the person who had given me so much happiness that made me blind about the risks of taking this seriously. And now you’re gone i could’t bear the agony of pain i am feeling when i miss you. I miss the love that we’ve shared. I miss hearing your laughs, your silly jokes and your clinginess. I wish i could take back one moment and move backward, to fix things again and be with you for the of our lives, to bring you back. But yeah, this is reality. This is how we face reality. Reality that makes us face the truth. The truth that we must have separate lives, and continue living without us being together. It saddens me a lot how i dreamed about us, plan about us and our future. It saddens me because after all these years, all our plans, our dreams. They all vanished."

"

“I wonder when will he come,” I whispered as I stroke strange lines in my paper, “that someone who will never leave me.”

“You’ll meet him eventually, but not now.” he said.

I want to say that, yes, I’ll do eventually but, what if the destiny hates me that much to let that someone take the opposite path I’d walk on?

Those are the things that I wanted to say, but not what I truly feel.

What I’m hearing my heart saying is, I have met him. I already met him and I’ll be needing all the courage in the world to say to his face right now that “It’s you, I want you to be that someone who will never leave me because if you ever did, I don’t think I’ll get over.”

But I just shrug and said, “Yes, maybe someday, but not now.”

I smiled and he looked away not having a clue that it’s impossible for me to be into somebody else when I want it to be him.

"

I need an escape partner.